Help, I've fallen and I can't get up...

Well, I'm guessing you could probably figure out my age by the title of the post today; you have to be a certain age to remember this phrase. It was originally in a 1980's commercial for Life Call, a company that marketed small touch devices that would "call" emergency services for you. Although as a maturer adult, it doesn't seem quite so funny (guess I'm thinking, "That could happen to me!") I remember laughing so hard when I was younger. Not really at the lady who fell but at all the parodies that came out; I even think there was a Saturday Night Live episode about it.

All this talk of falling brings to mind a scripture...

"for though a righteous man falls seven times, he rises again, but the wicked are brought down by calamity." Proverbs 24:16


My last post was about a dark time in my life. I wrote it about a month ago and I am doing better. I don't think I am completely in the light yet, but the dark days are definitely fewer.

I find comfort in the words of Proverbs 24. It assures me that righteous people do fall. For whatever reason: sin, sickness, depression, heartache, weariness, family trauma, financial strain, etc. I guess it really shouldn't surprise us that there will be dark days. The most comfort for me comes from the getting up part. Yes, we will fall, but we will rise again. The LORD will sustain us, walk through the rough times with us (Isaiah 43), guide us and comfort us. I am so thankful He walks through with us, does not desert us in our dark times.

The end of the verse says that the wicked are brought down by calamity. I can certainly believe this because I don't know what I would have done during the dark times without the LORD. Yes, there were people who cared and reached out to me, but in the darkest night, there were just the LORD and me and that was enough. I guess the one thing I have learned over and over is that people can help but ultimately it has to be just the LORD and you, that has to be enough. God is gracious enough to provide family and friends to help, but HE is the source of all our needs and HE has so proven Himself to be true to me.

During the dark times, that is tough to remember but at the end of the day, it is the truth I need.

I will fall, I will get up and the LORD Himself will sustain me. Enough. And as Kim Darby said in True Grit, "And enough is a feast."

Thank you, LORD, that You are always enough, enough to sustain me, provide for me, comfort me, love me... enough for whatever is my need. I am glad that I will get up because of Your steadfast love. Thank You that you did not design me to stay down but at times allow darkness because I need to reach out for You, only You. You are amazing, Faithful and True.

It's getting dark earlier...

***Please note: I did not write the following to obtain pity (I only invite a very few to my pity parties, you know who you are and thanks for coming and not judging me while you were there); it was something I felt I needed to write to be real, true to who I am and I feel better in my spirit for having done so. Thanks for your understanding.***


During a particularly dark time in my life, the song, Blessed Be Your Name, became my anthem. These anointed lyrics were penned by Matt Redman. The following are a few lines:

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name...

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name...

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name...

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say...

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name...

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

Well, I did list more than a few... but they spoke to me SO much then, especially...

the desert place...wilderness... a place not of my own choosing

road marked with suffering... my soul and spirit suffered greatly

pain in the offering... some days it was really HARD to praise...

darkness closes in... very dark but a glimmer of light was always there...

still I will say...Blessed be Your Name...

You give and take away... so, so true ... never felt it so much

Still my heart will choose to say, "Lord, blessed by Your Name!"


Lately it has been dark again, LORD, and I am thankful You have reminded me of Your Word through Job and Matt. Not the same circumstances at all but still just dark. Thank You that there are so many more light days than dark days. Thank You that You allow me to especially take care of myself during dark days. Thank You that Your Word is full of folks like me that had dark days, too. Thank You that You are the Light. I know the dark days probably will not cease immediately but they will pass and I will choose to say, "Blessed be Your Name!!" Even in a dreary place.


{Job} said ... The Lord gave and the Lord has taken away; blessed (praised and magnified in worship) be the name of the Lord! In all this Job sinned not nor charged God foolishly. Job 1:21-22

Work is hard, LORD!

I have been looking for "work" for over 9 months without much success. Job hunting, writing and rewriting resumes, filing applications, going to interviews, trying to say the "right" things, getting frustrated and saying the wrong things (BTW, this strategy does not work for all you fellow job-seekers), getting "nice" rejections notes and phone calls (this is rare, wonder what has happened to this practice?), etc., etc., has been the theme of 2009 for me and I have not enjoyed it one bit. Okay, traveling a little has been enjoyable but to be honest the "work" part of job hunting has not produced a happy face, nor a job at this point :(

Then, of course, the LORD reminds me that "work" is not supposed to be easy, hence the word, "work." Decided to do a little digging on that one...

According to Google, work is defined as: 1) exert oneself by doing mental or physical work for a purpose or out of necessity (um, I was always taught not to use the word itself to define it, but oh, well, what do I know compared to Google?); 2) be employed (okay, I don't "work");
3) exercise...(I definitely don't "work" in this context); 4) move in an agitated manner (well, I surely do "work" if this is the definition ~ LOL).

These are just some of their definitions. But get the idea, work is generally hard, doing something that matters. Even mental work is difficult and sometimes physically exhausting. Goodness gracious, even talking can be work, believe me, I KNOW about that one. But the idea I am getting from the LORD is that work is supposed to be hard. Yesterday, this verse came to mind:

We are assured and know that [God being a partner in their labor] all things work together and are [fitting into a plan] for good to and for those who love God and are called according to [His] design and purpose. Romans 8:28 (Amplified Bible)

Those of us who love Jesus probably know this verse by heart ~ we use it whenever difficult times assault us. It brings us comfort to know the LORD is "working" all things together and fitting it into a plan for good. Now we know, nothing is really hard for the LORD but I think from our perspective, waiting for everything to work together is hard. My challenge was to think through the roughest thing I have ever faced and ask myself,

Did this work for good? ~ My answer is a definite "YES!"
Did everything feel good? ~ "NO!"
Was it pleasurable? ~ "NO!"
Was the "work" hard for me as GOD "worked" it for my good (and for the good of some of those involved in my life?) ~ "YES!"
Am I being blessed today because of the "work" done then? ~ "ABSOLUTELY YES, YES, YES!!!"
Would I go through it again ~ please, don't go there...

Anyway, I have to focus on the good that happened then while I am going through some difficulties now and the LORD Who brought good from awful ~

To grant [consolation and joy] to those who mourn in Zion--to give them an ornament (a garland or diadem) of beauty instead of ashes, the oil of joy instead of mourning, the garment [expressive] of praise instead of a heavy, burdened, and failing spirit--that they may be called oaks of righteousness [lofty, strong, and magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice, and right standing with God], the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified. Isaiah 61:3 (Amplified Bible)

Moreover, the LORD is telling me to trust Him for my family's, my friend's, and my loved one's lives. OUCH! That work is harder, LORD, somehow trusting You for them is even harder.

LORD JESUS,

Your work is easy; Your burden is light, forgive me when I have taken Your work to do myself. No wonder it is so hard. Forgive me when I have been lazy in doing my work because it seems too hard. Help me to see the difference between Your work and my work. Forgive me most of all for not trusting Your "work" in my life and the lives of those I love. Your name is Faithful and True. I believe, help my unbelief.

...that they may be called oaks of righteousness [lofty, strong, and magnificent, distinguished for uprightness, justice, and right standing with God], the planting of the Lord, that He may be glorified.

RePete

Anyone who knows me knows I LOVE, LOVE, LOVE my GRANDsons!! They are so precious to me and I really enjoy spending time with them. They are 21 months apart with the oldest being 3 1/2 and the youngest almost 2. The most fun we have with them right now is seeing the younger trying to imitate the older, in words and actions. It is just hilarious to see a clumsy 2 yr. old trying to copy a more adept older brother. We call them, "Pete" and "RePete."

Thinking of "RePete" brings to mind a scripture in which I always thought the apostle Paul to be a little boastful, maybe having a little swagger in his pen when he wrote it (Oh, come on, he was a man after all!):

Therefore I urge you to imitate me. For this reason I am sending to you Timothy, my son whom I love, who is faithful in the Lord. He will remind you of my way of life in Christ Jesus, which agrees with what I teach everywhere in every church. (I Cor. 4:16-17)

Can you imagine asking someone to imitate you with their Christian walk? I can't, God forbid! But what if they did? What if everyone participated in Christianity the same way you or I do? Would there be a church anywhere? Would anyone accept Christ as their Savior based on your witness and testimony? Providing quality, secure childcare during worship services? What about missionary support ... Sunday School, Bible study, small groups? ...monetary support of the Kingdom? ...help with the homeless, unfortunate, widowed, orphans, those who've lost jobs? ...those dying or grieving for a recent loss? Of course, I could go on and on...

What would others learn from how I treat people ...would they hear criticism, gossip, inappropriate humor, racism, hatred, bitterness ...Or would they hear positive thoughts, kindness, clean humor, compliments, forgiveness, support, truth, mercy, grace, love...

I've heard it said statistically, we influence 7 people in our lifetime (on average), either for the good or the bad ...what are your 7 people doing? What about mine?

Paul was certainly bold and probably not arrogant. If new Christians can't imitate seasoned Christians, what are we in the business for anyway? Of course, we ultimately need to point everyone to Christ, but could we say, "Imitate me" ... scary words ... who's imitating us?

Let the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be acceptable in Your sight, O Lord, my [firm, impenetrable] Rock and my Redeemer. Psalm 19:14 (Amplified Bible)

Cash for Clunkers!

Recently, while at a doctor's office, my hubby asked if he was just getting "old!" For some reason the following quickly popped out of my mouth, "Well, I have heard of this program called 'Cash for Clunkers' where you can trade in old models.' " The doctor was greatly amused; his assistant was also amused; my hubby was not. I felt it was hilarious and believing humor to be stress relieving, I imagined I was being helpful. Guess not.

Some people have discovered there were parts of "Cash for Clunkers" they did not know: needing to own your trade-in car for a specific amount of time; your trade-in having to be from a certain time period; and paying tax on your "incentive" money. Wow, pays to read the fine print...

As I have mentioned before, my marriage has had its ups and downs (like a roller coaster!) but like "Cash for Clunkers" sometimes I felt cheated, didn't really get what I had bargained for ... didn't fully comprehend "for better or worse" ... and so on. Occasionally I think, "If I had known 30 years ago what I know now, would I have made the same choice?" I sure would have missed a lot of enormous blessings but would that have been enough or would I have bailed?

Then I think of what God must have thought before the foundation of the earth ... did He contemplate bailing because He certainly knew what I would do ... what a "clunker" I turned out to be ... how I would betray Him ... disgrace His name ... reject Him ... hurt His people ... lie ... seek my own glory ... judge His chosen ones so mercilessly ... be horribly selfish ... YOU even know the despicable sins I am yet to commit ...

Oh, Dear GOD, how could You know all of this about me and STILL choose to send Your one and only SON to die in my place????? I cannot, cannot comprehend it but I am so humbled and eternally grateful You did. Thank You for that great sacrifice and all that comes with it ... I am unable to even imagine what it must have cost You Both ... but I do feel so very loved (and, um, thank You that I can't see the future.)

But God shows and clearly proves His [own] love for us by the fact that while we were still sinners,
Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One) died for us.
Romans 5:8 (Amplified Bible)