Thursday, September 3, 2009

Cash for Clunkers!

Recently, while at a doctor's office, my hubby asked if he was just getting "old!" For some reason the following quickly popped out of my mouth, "Well, I have heard of this program called 'Cash for Clunkers' where you can trade in old models.' " The doctor was greatly amused; his assistant was also amused; my hubby was not. I felt it was hilarious and believing humor to be stress relieving, I imagined I was being helpful. Guess not.

Some people have discovered there were parts of "Cash for Clunkers" they did not know: needing to own your trade-in car for a specific amount of time; your trade-in having to be from a certain time period; and paying tax on your "incentive" money. Wow, pays to read the fine print...

As I have mentioned before, my marriage has had its ups and downs (like a roller coaster!) but like "Cash for Clunkers" sometimes I felt cheated, didn't really get what I had bargained for ... didn't fully comprehend "for better or worse" ... and so on. Occasionally I think, "If I had known 30 years ago what I know now, would I have made the same choice?" I sure would have missed a lot of enormous blessings but would that have been enough or would I have bailed?

Then I think of what God must have thought before the foundation of the earth ... did He contemplate bailing because He certainly knew what I would do ... what a "clunker" I turned out to be ... how I would betray Him ... disgrace His name ... reject Him ... hurt His people ... lie ... seek my own glory ... judge His chosen ones so mercilessly ... be horribly selfish ... YOU even know the despicable sins I am yet to commit ...

Oh, Dear GOD, how could You know all of this about me and STILL choose to send Your one and only SON to die in my place????? I cannot, cannot comprehend it but I am so humbled and eternally grateful You did. Thank You for that great sacrifice and all that comes with it ... I am unable to even
imagine what it must have cost You Both ... but I do feel so very loved (and, um, thank You that I can't see the future.)

But God shows and clearly proves His [own] love for us by the fact that while we were still sinners,
Christ (the Messiah, the Anointed One) died for us.

Romans 5:8
(Amplified Bible)



2 comments:

Barbara said...

Judi, I enjoyed your "cash for clunkers". Sometimes I feel like an old clunker, good for what????Then I realize I have a God who is looking over me and trying to direct me. I don't always listen, but He is there to remind me. Also, your trip to the beach was so uplifting. Too look across such a big ocean, I cannot comprehend how big God is. I sit on the back porch a lot, especially when I am in one of those down and out moods. I look up in the sky and whether it is clear blue or cloudy, I think God where are you. My loved ones who are right there with you, loving, praising you. So many times after praying and looking up, I can feel His presence right there on the porch with me. I don't reply much but enjoy them and remember you are such a blessing to me. Love you.

Mimi said...

Barbara, this was so encouraging; thank you for taking your time to post ... and yes, God is there speaking to us always ... HIS presence is precious to me also!!!